He is one of those people who is fascinating and is knitted together quite differently from most others. He has the intellect of a geeky kid, but not the personality. He is extremely outgoing and social. This fact has made growing up tough for him. Even though he was one of the smartest kids in his classes, he struggled to perform academically because of the negative distractions. He has not had an easy road. At the age of 18, he has experienced much more hurt and heartbreak then most people do in a lifetime. His struggles have been epic...but he is a survivor.
I was told once by an elderly lady whom we came into contact with when he was a toddler that I had been given a gift. She told me that I had been given a child that was here to change the world. Oh course, she was saying this based on his current headstrong and unrelenting behavior, but somehow she saw something in him. During some of the toughest days as a mother, I would cling to those words, thinking that they meant something. I told myself that she must have been an angel send with a message. It got me through a lot. I am grateful to this day that she took the time to impart her words. We should all do that more often.
So now we are on a new road. A new normal. A one day at a time future. The recipe is somewhere out there. No doubt Life will point us in a direction. Life has a way of doing that. I still believe that I am that great mother who can help my kid move mountains. It just so happens that we've moved to a new range.
"When life gives you lemons, make lemonade"